Today, I don’t have any makeup/jewellery related post
for you. I just want to talk today. And, if the sentences don’t look in an
orderly manner and you find a lot of grammatical mistakes, please ignore.
I’m currently in a confusing phase of my life with a
lot going on in my mind. My energy meter has gone down. There isn’t any
particular reason but deep inside, I’m quite disappointed with a few things and
how I still haven’t learned some lessons. It’s why I am facing those situations
again in my life. When I look back at myself 2 years back, there’s a hell lot
of difference! I have re-discovered myself. I’m not that much of a soft-hearted
girl I used to be. But looks like what I’m today is still cruel in this world
(or not, maybe it’s my sadness speaking). I have learned many lessons but the
lesson where I should put limits on takers is yet to be learned by me. Being a
giver, I really need to set boundaries because somehow I always end up hurting
myself.
You know like after a lot of bad things happened to
you, you think you now know better. You are strong, you don’t let others take
you for granted, you believe you see wisely and
yet you still miss seeing some people who treat you like nothing.
If you are someone who doesn’t even bothers to check
your schedule (50 times!) because a person needs you, the least you expect from
that person is to be there for you in your time of need; at least some times. You
don’t need to hear that “I’m busy” crap from that person when you didn’t even make
them realize that you too were when they needed you. Ya, I know, expectation is
crime and blah blah! But, I am a human being. I have feelings. I haven’t
mastered that art of not expecting (although I feel closer to it). I think I
just need to fit this somewhere in my heart that I need to let go of some parts
of myself in order to become a better (Read: Less non-caring) person. I really
do!
Please
See:
I’m sure after 2 days, I’ll be back to square one and even forget what I wrote
here. Yes! Because.. Cheer up! The worst is yet to come! :P :|
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